Self-Defense

Last night, my husband's oldest daughter tried to attack me. The self-defense training I had a few years ago kicked in and I was able to subdue her without hurting her. It was a shocking experience, but I was grateful that I had the training. I never thought I'd have to use it on a family member.

The fact is, more people are attacked by familly members than by strangers. I think every woman should get self-defense training, because it is generally not in our nature to fight. We hope that we will never have to use it, but if we need it, we need to know what to do. I haven't thought about self-defense for 3 years, but I instinctively knew what to do because of the 1 week training I had.

Today, I have to work on forgiveness and releasing resentments. What I feel right now is not good for me. It is keeping me from joy and gratitude. Its up to me to redirect my thoughts and feelings to a healthier focus. I am divorcing my husband, and his kids, but we have to live together today, in peace. My husband is not a violent man. We get along very well. In fact, he came home from work to set his daughter straight last night. He handled the situation much better than I could. His children resent their natural mother because she abandoned them and they are taking it out on me. I don't deserve it. I am leaving them, with my own 2 children, to live a better way. I have done everything I can for them, but they don't want to heal. They want their anger. I can't live that way.

Now, I need to work on my own state of heart and mind.
Jstone